An Off Day.

A Very Off Day!

I am not in my usual state of mind today. I do not want to address what happened because I do not want to disrespect the person involved. But my reaction to today's caregiving job was not what it should have been. I am not a nurse or caregiver in the sense I should be, and I always thought that by the time I retired, I would enjoy a slower-paced lifestyle filled with enjoyment, fun, rest, relaxation, and some travel. I also want to have the ability to spend time with my husband and enjoy the little things everyday life has to offer us. The 'demands' that must be met before enjoying a day off are sometimes not worth the extra work. Does that even make sense?

The sense of feeling overwhelmed is higher than usual today and has sparked my emotional uneasiness.

I do not have room to complain or be dissatisfied, but I would like the free time to be free for a few days. Opposed to a few minutes or hours. LOL

I need to get through today, and tomorrow will be better. Much better. It is simply one of those days.

How do you cope with being a caregiver? How do you cope when it is your mom, and the treatment is not good, or the situation is yuk!?

If only there were excellent elder care for those who need it and not at a cost higher than selling your kidneys and limbs.

Today would be a good day to get that walk in and enjoy the day, getting vitamin D. Exercise and vitamin D. Excellent medicine for better mental health.

I was able to clean and organize my bedroom and partially the closet yesterday. It felt good to clean and organize for Spring. The closet will take a lot more work. Additionally, the need to go through my bathroom cupboard would be good. It was done not that long ago but could use a once-over.

It has been a year since we lost Sally, and it may be close to time to replace the flooring in our room and possibly repaint while we're at it. Something about Spring begs a refresh: a clothing refresh, closet refresh, laundry room refresh, entire house refresh, landscaping refresh. Refresh. Refresh. Refresh. 

Cleaning is cathartic for me. I like how it looks and smells; the freshness and cleanliness are medicine, especially when a candle is lit after each room is completed.

My gripe session is complete, and I appreciate you giving me this time to get this off my chest. 

Thank you!

Be happy, healthy and safe!

* Photos from Canva